Goodbyes are not forever. Goodbyes are not the end. They simply mean I’ll miss you, until we meet again!Unknown
Ever since November 2019, my life has been a series of bumpy cycles, one after the other. Today I can finally say that I have reached what psychologists call nowadays “emotional fatigue”.
I consider myself a strong person and over the years that I have invested in body and mind strength training, I have managed to show up to the world with energy, commitment, optimism, and a huge smile. Even on autopilot mode.
I now understand that the reason why I keep showing up every day is that, in the midst of obstacles and challenges, little miracles can happen. Many have been fleeting and short-lived, and then there is the “huge miracle”. The one that I get to see every day and reminds me of how grateful I am to have the opportunity to be a mother.
Today we have a Waning Crescent moon. According to Moonology, this moon phase represents a time for healing. It’s all about clearing our minds, cut loose ends, and be ready for a new cycle of rebirth and regeneration.
I have been focusing on universal energies more than ever lately. I have been obsessed with the idea that there is more to what we see, feel, hear, touch, and experience with our five senses. This world is definitely larger than that.
My father passed away in January this year, and after not seeing him for the past five years, detachment settled in. Being unable to say goodbye, still in the middle of the second global lockdown, my body and my mind were not entirely capable of processing what was going on. I decided to believe he isn’t gone and he still remains here. I haven’t said goodbye.